today just came back frm hotel(:
lols
ytd&today eat till so full x3
hahahhaha .
really bcome pigg le,
den all dunwan me liaos =P
hahahaha

anyways, bought 2 new pair of shoes
:DD
yays ~
ahhahha .
tmr continue go buy thinggs bahs!
maybe only =x

i saw something quite disturbingg ..
i shouldnt have logged into msn somehow
=x
hahaha

happy new yearr darlinggs
<33

hehehhee .
ytd i went to eat koren foood((:
yummmys !~

hahha .
just now went to eat jap food(:
<3333
>.>
so ugly now .
waaaaas!

now watching 斗牛要不要(:

god bless (:

it started with a kiss 2 is out(:


Y
A
Y

=P
hehehee .
grates junjun lvl12o (:

merry xmas my frendds(:
&a early happy new yearr !
hahhha

monmon xD

errr .
i going indo forr the next few days .
anything email me or tagtag :DD

<33

hehe ytd my wedding :D
srry those who didnt come ...
si louis calls me time waster ._.
anw .
my char nice anot ?
lol BORED .

hmms .
read daniel's aka bestiee's blogg .
lol .
complainedd i didnt update !
HAHAHA .
okay fine .

this post dedicatedd to my MOST BELOVED BESTIE((:
<3
=x lol
hahhahaha .
i love my bestiee ~~
trallalaallala ~
=x

hahahaha =x
i wanna sleeep !

YAYS(:
after countless try, MAPLE IS BACK!
but i missed binbin's wedding :/
oh wells .
nvm x333
thank you lord jesus(:

anw ..
hmm ytd reformatedd com ..
re download maple few times ..
but failed :(
i hope that this time download will succeed ?
please ?
its ytd's continuation ...
nikki say it stopped at 91% ...
now 96% le ...
i really, really hope that it would work ..
pretty please ?
my wedding's a day earlierr somemore ..
aka tmr :(
i dno what i'll do ...seriously ...
aaaaaaa .
i hope god's protecting , please ?

helplessly helpless ..
im unsure of what to do ..
if i do this, is it right or wrong ?
will i make someone angry? upset?
i no longer know whats right, whats wrong
my life's totally upside down, messed up
with things that i dont recognise at all.
the way pple change ..is just so ...scary?
once they changed, they're like strangers i've never met bfore..
what did i exactly do wrong ..?
that they had to change to be what they are right now ..
and im to them ...like pests ..
asking them questions ..
they'll think im nuts, annoying ..
and i myself will get none of the answers i want to know ..
i really feel like a pest man ..
i wann live on ..but i dont get whats my purpose here
to annoy others ?
be a pest ?
im very unsure ..
sure enough im sure many pple would like to see me gone from their faces
im sure, can ask them to vote ^^

thanks queenie(:
for always being there
im trying hard to cheer up
&not giving up
like you said, i gotta think of those who'll miss me
if i quit maple .
you're right, i cant quit maple just bcos of those pple
there's another group of pple out there who cares for me ..
who realises my existence ..
thanks queenie (:
loveyou <3

HAHAHHA .
YES .
im happy with my audi's money !
<33
but ..
i buy hair ...
den no money le :(
waaaaaaaaaaaa .

bestie,
IM FINEE ;D
just tat i dont blog when im happy !
it just all happens to be :)
dont worry !
<3
plus also ..
maybe it was bcos i was sick or something
den perhaps it affected me :D
ehehe

rawrs .
im un-
needed"
wanted"
:D

hehhee .
hhahaha .
i love isanbel mummy <3
i love fire daddy <3
i love blueey laopo <3
i love darrel <3
i love ahgong <3
i love jun <3
i love bestiee <3
i love casey <3
i love angie <3
i love jason <3
i love ivy <3
i love danger <3
i love star aiai <3
i love psy aiai <3
i love leon ghey partner <3
i love queen <3
i love mon <3
i love susu <3
i love wen <3
i love siaw ee <3
i love valerie <3
i love min er <3
i love ming wai <3
i love sham <3
i love radia <3
i love sam <3
and the list goes on ..

but ...
only some of them were there for me ..always ..
thanks(:
mostly, i'd feel empty ..
ask me why ..cos i've got so many pple around me ..
but ..im feeling way too empty ..
a type of emptyness ..that perhaps..
others wont get to understand ?
i dno ..

i ....really dont get it ..
i was just so ...happy just now
bfore i logged into maple ...
laughing nonstop&all ..
when i was out at suntec with min er,ming wai&min yi ..
but ....
i logged into maple ..
only realising that ...
my existence wasnt at all important ...
if i were ever to disappear ...i dont think anyone would notice
cos it's indifferent ..
why ...do i keep forcing myself ......to smile ?
be happy ?
why cant i be .....real ?
cant i show my really ....emotions ?
there's like ...no one i could ever open up to ..
well ..not completely ..

seriously ...
im really beggining to hate myself ...
more&more as the time passes by ....
im really at a lost of what to do when&where ..
im starting to longer be able to tell whats rite and whats wrong ....
ple just hate me ...
im bcoming a losier person ..arent i?
go ahead and hate me all you want then .
im not stopping ...
i dont deserve to be everyone's frend ..i know ..
when i hae the chance, i'd really disappear from your lives ..
if i am given that chance ..
like go somewhere far away ...good rite?
maybe migrate next time or something ....
den everyone'll be rejoicing for all the peace&joy ..
what a perfect world thw world shall be .. :)

i've just read angie's blog ..
she too cant get over it ...
angie, cheer up kay?
:)

ahhh .
tc bestiee&caseyy
<33
one go taiwan, other go aust.
TT

hahhah .
zhiqing so cute xD
ahahhaah ~

radia,
are you happy?
what are you doing now?

today just came back frm hotel(:
lols
ytd&today eat till so full x3
hahahhaha .
really bcome pigg le,
den all dunwan me liaos =P
hahahaha

anyways, bought 2 new pair of shoes
:DD
yays ~
ahhahha .
tmr continue go buy thinggs bahs!
maybe only =x

i saw something quite disturbingg ..
i shouldnt have logged into msn somehow
=x
hahaha

happy new yearr darlinggs
<33

hehehhee .
ytd i went to eat koren foood((:
yummmys !~

hahha .
just now went to eat jap food(:
<3333
>.>
so ugly now .
waaaaas!

now watching 斗牛要不要(:

god bless (:

it started with a kiss 2 is out(:


Y
A
Y

=P
hehehee .
grates junjun lvl12o (:

merry xmas my frendds(:
&a early happy new yearr !
hahhha

monmon xD

errr .
i going indo forr the next few days .
anything email me or tagtag :DD

<33

hehe ytd my wedding :D
srry those who didnt come ...
si louis calls me time waster ._.
anw .
my char nice anot ?
lol BORED .

hmms .
read daniel's aka bestiee's blogg .
lol .
complainedd i didnt update !
HAHAHA .
okay fine .

this post dedicatedd to my MOST BELOVED BESTIE((:
<3
=x lol
hahhahaha .
i love my bestiee ~~
trallalaallala ~
=x

hahahaha =x
i wanna sleeep !

YAYS(:
after countless try, MAPLE IS BACK!
but i missed binbin's wedding :/
oh wells .
nvm x333
thank you lord jesus(:

anw ..
hmm ytd reformatedd com ..
re download maple few times ..
but failed :(
i hope that this time download will succeed ?
please ?
its ytd's continuation ...
nikki say it stopped at 91% ...
now 96% le ...
i really, really hope that it would work ..
pretty please ?
my wedding's a day earlierr somemore ..
aka tmr :(
i dno what i'll do ...seriously ...
aaaaaaa .
i hope god's protecting , please ?

helplessly helpless ..
im unsure of what to do ..
if i do this, is it right or wrong ?
will i make someone angry? upset?
i no longer know whats right, whats wrong
my life's totally upside down, messed up
with things that i dont recognise at all.
the way pple change ..is just so ...scary?
once they changed, they're like strangers i've never met bfore..
what did i exactly do wrong ..?
that they had to change to be what they are right now ..
and im to them ...like pests ..
asking them questions ..
they'll think im nuts, annoying ..
and i myself will get none of the answers i want to know ..
i really feel like a pest man ..
i wann live on ..but i dont get whats my purpose here
to annoy others ?
be a pest ?
im very unsure ..
sure enough im sure many pple would like to see me gone from their faces
im sure, can ask them to vote ^^

thanks queenie(:
for always being there
im trying hard to cheer up
&not giving up
like you said, i gotta think of those who'll miss me
if i quit maple .
you're right, i cant quit maple just bcos of those pple
there's another group of pple out there who cares for me ..
who realises my existence ..
thanks queenie (:
loveyou <3

HAHAHHA .
YES .
im happy with my audi's money !
<33
but ..
i buy hair ...
den no money le :(
waaaaaaaaaaaa .

bestie,
IM FINEE ;D
just tat i dont blog when im happy !
it just all happens to be :)
dont worry !
<3
plus also ..
maybe it was bcos i was sick or something
den perhaps it affected me :D
ehehe

rawrs .
im un-
needed"
wanted"
:D

hehhee .
hhahaha .
i love isanbel mummy <3
i love fire daddy <3
i love blueey laopo <3
i love darrel <3
i love ahgong <3
i love jun <3
i love bestiee <3
i love casey <3
i love angie <3
i love jason <3
i love ivy <3
i love danger <3
i love star aiai <3
i love psy aiai <3
i love leon ghey partner <3
i love queen <3
i love mon <3
i love susu <3
i love wen <3
i love siaw ee <3
i love valerie <3
i love min er <3
i love ming wai <3
i love sham <3
i love radia <3
i love sam <3
and the list goes on ..

but ...
only some of them were there for me ..always ..
thanks(:
mostly, i'd feel empty ..
ask me why ..cos i've got so many pple around me ..
but ..im feeling way too empty ..
a type of emptyness ..that perhaps..
others wont get to understand ?
i dno ..

i ....really dont get it ..
i was just so ...happy just now
bfore i logged into maple ...
laughing nonstop&all ..
when i was out at suntec with min er,ming wai&min yi ..
but ....
i logged into maple ..
only realising that ...
my existence wasnt at all important ...
if i were ever to disappear ...i dont think anyone would notice
cos it's indifferent ..
why ...do i keep forcing myself ......to smile ?
be happy ?
why cant i be .....real ?
cant i show my really ....emotions ?
there's like ...no one i could ever open up to ..
well ..not completely ..

seriously ...
im really beggining to hate myself ...
more&more as the time passes by ....
im really at a lost of what to do when&where ..
im starting to longer be able to tell whats rite and whats wrong ....
ple just hate me ...
im bcoming a losier person ..arent i?
go ahead and hate me all you want then .
im not stopping ...
i dont deserve to be everyone's frend ..i know ..
when i hae the chance, i'd really disappear from your lives ..
if i am given that chance ..
like go somewhere far away ...good rite?
maybe migrate next time or something ....
den everyone'll be rejoicing for all the peace&joy ..
what a perfect world thw world shall be .. :)

i've just read angie's blog ..
she too cant get over it ...
angie, cheer up kay?
:)

ahhh .
tc bestiee&caseyy
<33
one go taiwan, other go aust.
TT

hahhah .
zhiqing so cute xD
ahahhaah ~

radia,
are you happy?
what are you doing now?